DIVINITY WITHIN - Day 25 of 108 Days - "Think before speaking; Think before acting; Then go ahead, If you feel good about it. "

Day 25 - When we want to speak, we open our mouth and talk; when we want to do something, we go ahead and act on it. Do we think first before speaking? Do we think first before acting?
Do we ever think at all?

"Think before speaking; Think before acting;
Then go ahead, If you feel good about it. "

As a child, we always feel good about most everything. Then, the adult around us start admonishing us. We started hearing "don't do that, don't think that way, its wrong, no, no, no" - all this negative input being fed into our young mind and since we are young and we do not know yet how to fend for ourselves, we end up agreeing and accepting it. The challenge we now face as an adult is that those agreements we made a a child does not serve us anymore and since it is way back in our minds, it is somehow taking over our lives. We someone lost that "feel good" attitude. We become skeptical, we become jaded, we are frustrated, disappointed.

How do we go back to our pure self again? How do we know if our action is the right action?

If our intention is pure and selfless, born out of love; if it is based on truth and you think it will result in peace, then, it is a right action.

If we are continuously thinking what to think, thinking what to say and do - that would be too much thinking going on. And every thoughts, words and deeds will become so overwhelming that I would much rather just take a nap and not think at all.

It is said that true humanness consists of a continuous series of tiny acts executed with absolute sincerity and largeness of heart. That being the case, tiny acts is much easier to accomplish. And the last few days, I was able to accomplished that very easily indeed.

Since I heard from the grapevine (at the Abode of Highest Peace) that "The quality of one's feelings determines one's future" - I figure if I always feel good, then my future will be good. You see, when I think about the future, I do it in little chunk, just like series of tiny acts. So, for me future is the next few hours, perhaps the next day. The next week will be sort of stretching it a bit but next month or year is just too far away. This way, I get to think of future a bit, but I am still in the "moment". I still get to enjoy the "present". I do not go stray way beyond yonder like most people do. But....when I do stray - I think about when I am 80 years old and walking on the beach with the one I love. Looking at the horizon, admiring the orange robe of the setting sun. And I am happy, very happy.

I listen, a lot. Lately, I seem to retain much more information than when I was much younger. I also seem to remember about little things - though I seem to forget big stuff. I was talking to my sister and she reminded me about this "big event" and she said I probably don't remember. She is right, I forgot about it (because it was not a very good memory, it was not a "feel good" about it thought. So, of course, I probably erased it right after it happened. But when she reminded me, I got it back from the memory bank and it was very vivid and in great details - the good thing is - there was no emotional energy attached to it. That is very good because the charge was already removed, then there is no reaction to it. Remember I wrote about reflection, reaction and resound? Check it out again, must be DAY 9 or something.

Here is a trick: most of the things that happen to us whether positive or negative will leave an imprint in our memory depending on how much emotional charged we attached to it. So, the more charged, the more it affect us. And long, long afterward - during one quiet moment when we have to make an important decision, it will somehow take over and we wonder why we made such decision when we should have gone the other way - it is because of the emotionally charge long ago that was left in our subconscious. So, what we need to do, whenever we have some time to spare or nothing better to do - we should try to write down incidents in our life that we remember. We can start with the negative ones, the ones that made us angry, or sad or lonely or miserable. Write it all done. And then, one by one we bring it back into our memory with as much detail as we can remember and as we see it in our mind's eye (like looking at the computer screen and seeing the event in one of the browser). As we watch the past incident unfold (like watching it on youtube) in our mind's eye, we click on the minimize button and the one we are watching goes flat. (by doing that simple act, we remove the negatively charge emotion that we attached to the event). To prove that it worked, we maximize it again and look and see - check your feelings and you should not feel anything anymore (since the charge was removed).

You do the above for each and every incident that you remember whether negative or positive, the reason being is that every day is a new day, a new beginning. You do not want any past event to affect you anymore. The past is dead and gone. No use putting/wasting any more energy on the past and no use allowing it to take over your present decisions.

All for now. Let me know if you have any success in the process.

With Infinite Love and Gratitude Always.
And so it is. And so it shall be.