
"Do not worry about the unsatisfactory environment you may have. Of course the place may have some drawbacks and it may not be ideal. But it is no use trying to run away from all that. You can overcome the drawbacks by training your own mind."
Day 10 - Stay there itself and pray to the Lord. Pray that He may fill you with His thoughts and Vision, making you ignore the defects of the environment. Do not seek comfort, for comfort might not be conducive to your spiritual progress. Learn to be comfortable in any place; that is better. Live in joy wherever you are; that is the way.
Revel in the realm of your mind; worship there the Lord you have chosen as your goal and be free of all the defects of the natural or human environment! No spot can be irksome to you, nor will any place seem disgusting.
It took me 10 years of reading this and memorizing it and trying sooooo hard to put it into practice. It was easy to do the first 4 sentences. Then, on the 5th year, I did the opposite of the 5th sentence. I just could not take it anymore. It was too painful, it was unbearable to be in the same environment and to keep my sanity, I have to leave.
At first, I was filled with remorse because I felt like I failed by not staying. It was like going through the training in bootcamp and yet, was not able to complete and finish the training. The worst part was it seems like too much wasted time going thru the training and not passing.
Then more feeling of disgust because I ran away - and it says it is no use trying to run away from all that...but staying away is the only way I know how (at that time) to keep my sanity.
So, I prayed that He may fill me with His thoughts and Vision, making me ignore the defects of the environment. But, I was not filled with His thoughts and Vision. And I seek comfort - though comfort may not be conducive to my spiritual progress at the time - I needed the comfort for I was in too much pain - the like of which is an open wound that is extremely painful to the victim for the flesh is exposed and causes excruciating agony that no one can see, and no sound of pain can be heard for the sufferer is ashamed of the pain. Oh, if only someone was brave enough to look into the eyes of the sufferer, they would have seen the agony deep down her soul and yet what can a mere human do to alleviate the suffering and pain of a fellow human if even the thoughts and vision of the divine escapes her?
Five years of living in comfort of fancy 5 star hotels and resorts, of flying back and forth north to south and east to west. And when all is said and done, the broadcast came again and I found myself in the same environment. 10 years have passed, why then am I back in the same environment?
There was a saying "Follow the Master, face the devil, fight to the end, finish the game". Alright then, I have to face my devil, fight to the end and finish the game. Now, I understand. Time is immaterial - some people spend their lifetime trying and still leave the body without finishing the game. Ten years is not bad. I needed the 5 years to practice the teaching in the unsatisfactory environment and 5 years in satisfactory (comfortable) environment to finally realized what the teaching is all about. When I stopped trying and almost as if I totally forgot it all, I woke up one morning in that exactly the same unsatisfactory environment I left 5 year previous and....
the only difference is my feeling of acceptance of it all. Living in JOY. Reveling in the realm of my mind. Free of all the defects of the natural or human environment.
HAPPY, HAPPY, JOY, JOY, HAPPY, HAPPY, JOY

Be Well.
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