Day 11 - Today, I promised to take someone to the wig store so she can have a wig ready when she starts losing her hair due to chemo. So, I got up early and got in the car and as I put the key in the ignition, I noticed the car stereo is missing. I looked in the back and there were shattered glasses all over the seat. Whoever did it, broke the small glass window on the passenger side to open the door. Then I remember my gps and it was gone, too. And when I open the glove compartment, the car manual is gone. And there is a sleeve on the jacket of the leather manual where you can put your insurance card and the extended warranty card and on the back of the manual are blank pages where you write the maintenance done to the car and staple the receipts - that's all gone too.
"Forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us"
The fact that, the person broke the small window and not the big one, I am assuming he got a conscience and he thought it would cost less to replace the small glass window - or maybe not - he was probably just on drug and smashed the closest window he can hit.
It took me over 7 hours to finally say "I forgive you whoever you are, I forgive me". And yet, I am still having a heavy heart. So, I did some deep breathing and utter "I release and let go, I let go and let....".
Why did it take me over 7 hours to say the forgiveness thingy?
Let me backtrack and find out. I was excited about my plan for the day - it seems like a good plan, a reasonable plan but still a plan. When that plan is thwarted because of the incident, I have no plan B. So my mind went to 2nd gear, 3rd gear and 4th gear. I went to the police station, took the car to the shop, rented a car and then continue on with the rest of the day. When I was done with my errand and on the way back home, 7 hours had passed and I can sit quietly in the car and utter the forgiveness thingy. But why did I not say it right away as soon as I saw what happened? Because we are not used to forgiving someone for their wrongdoing right away. All this gooey feeling that is supposed to help us and benefit us all and elevate us all to the higher level/dimension takes practice. We have to discipline ourselves. We have to train our mind and heart. Or perhaps we should untrain our mind and heart from what society dictates.
Better still, when we experience something unsettling, we should not react right away. We should be still and go within. Relax, take 7 deep breath, and just be.
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Our levels of mind are basically separated into four distinct levels of mental awareness.
Our daily active waking state is called the Beta state of mind and is characterized by a predominance of brainwaves oscillating between 14 and 30 cycles per second.
The inner, relaxed, day-dreaming state is called the Alpha state and is characterized
by a predominance of brainwaves ranging between 7 and 14 cycles per second.
When we relax our mind even further, by detaching even more from our external reality, we dip into the Theta state that is characterized by a predominance of brainwaves oscillating between 4 and 7 cycles per a second. This is the mind state we all enter just before falling asleep and just upon awakening from it.
When we relax even further, our mind enters the domain of the subconscious and we, at least most of us, lose conscious awareness and fall asleep. This level of deep mind subconscious operation is called the Delta level and is characterized by lots of brainwaves oscillating
between 1 and 4 times per second.
GO'D RI and RV
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So, think about brainwaves oscillating between 14 and 30 cycles per second on a daily waking hours. If we are agitated it goes closer to 30 cycles and when we sort of calm and collected, it is closer to 14 cycles. So during unsettling moments it is always closer to 30, that is why when we start feeling it, we have to calm ourselves down. No one else will do it for us. Then, as we become more aware of what is going on in our mind, we can progress to slowing it down and down and down. And it is said that as we enter the domain of the subconscious, that is where we meet God.
The divinity in me acknowledges the divinity in all of us. No judgement, no condition, just pure acceptance of what is.
BE WELL.
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