DIVINITY WITHIN - Day 13 of 108 Days - "“Your thoughts, words, and deeds will shape others and theirs will shape you.”

Day 13 - I was not totally convinced about this but when I woke up this morning I remember what I was doing the last 2 nights - I was actually getting up almost every hour or so and then going into the living and peeking through the window behind the drapes to check and see if there are any one up there who is about to break into somebody's car.

“Your thoughts, words, and deeds will shape others and theirs will shape you.”

Unbelievable. When I realized what I was doing, I couldn't believe it. How is it possible that someone who broke into my car and stole my "stuff" can actually shape my thoughts and deeds the last few nights?

WOW - I am not a wow person but this is just so fascinating and I am just so filled with INFINITE LOVE AND GRATITUDE for giving me this lesson and making me understand it and allowing me to share it in this blog.

It has been 5 days or so since I got the title for this day and yet I keep skipping it because I do not fully understand it and my brain is not accepting it. Although I already am aware and know that there is TRUTH and HIGHER TRUTH and much HIGHER TRUTH - I know that my thoughts, words and deeds will shape others and theirs will shape me - is TRUE. But, I cannot write about something unless I know it for a fact - meaning I understand it intellectually and my emotion agree to it and the only way it can solidify the intellectual understanding is to experience it within and without - meaning it has to resonate to the core of my being.

I am blown away that I actually invited the experience of having someone break into the car and steal stuff so I can experience the whole enchilada of that saying.

It seems like in the back of my mind, there is still a distinction between right and wrong and good and bad. That someone who is good/right can easily shape another and that someone who is bad/wrong have much harder time to influence others and yet we look around and search the history of our planet and we realized that in most major events, the impact on humans is unbelievably disproportionate when it is catastrophic/bad than when it is good - e.g. 9/11 for a few days, weeks and months - New Yorker seems to really care for each other and started to acknowledge others existence and then it slowly but surely went back to the usual ways of 'me, me, me, who the hell are you?, I am the only one that is important. On the other side of the coin of caring and loving is total disregard of another and fear. So 9/11 brought out fear in most people and the politician took advantage of that fear and now several years after the incident we are still going thru TSA and all the negative aftermath of 9/11.

How many people perpetuated such act of 9/11 disaster? And how many lives have changed and been shaped by those act? The same thing with a serial killer - one person perpetuated hideous act of violence and the whole community, city, state, country - nay the world is affected. The fear goes on long after the violent act was performed.

It is said that the negative thoughts multiple faster than a positive thought. I sure do not want the negative thought to overcome my positive thinking that I work so hard to get into. So I will try to be aware when someone's word, thought and/or deed is affecting my equanimity to the point that the CIA in me (Constant Integrated Awareness) stops to function.

That is exactly what happened to me, the last few nights. I let my shield down, the CIA took a nap, a break, a day off. And the fear took over - oh my God.....my elation is short lived. After 6 paragraphs I had another AHA moments and realized what really is happening - as I write this things day after day, if actually piggy backed on each other that on the 13th day, the experience has to be that which encompasses all the previous day's you know what...OMG, OMG, OMG. OK, OK, OK, relax, relax, take a deep breath - it is all for the good. really, really, really? will I ascend on 108th day? the future is a mystery - who knows what tomorrow might bring (those who are doing RV, of course) IDK, I know nothing.

All for now, just be.