"You have to go beyond miracles"
Day 3 - I was told to go beyond miracles. How can I do that? What does it mean? I love miracles.
Miracles, miracles, miracles. It seems like everybody want a miracle and when they do get it, they are elated, they are intoxicated, they are "high" - but only for a while. Sooner or later they forget and they go back to their old ways and beliefs and then they wanted more miracles.
I have known and researched hundreds of miracles that are well documented and checked and verified. Most religions based their beliefs on miracles.
I was brought up as a Catholic. As a child I felt neglected and to compensate, my imaginary friend was Jesus and always refer to him as my brother. I always called upon Mother Mary when my mom was not around and not available. My imaginary father is Father God (I did not know at that time that it should have been Father/Mother God).
As a child, when I wanted to buy a candy from the store and I did not have any money and there was no one to ask, I would go to the second floor of the house, and flung the windows open wide and looked up in the sky and utter that little request "Father God, I want some candy from the store and there is no money, can you give me some so I can buy?". I will hear Him loud and clear saying "OK, there it is (on the ground)". It was so normal, I will look on the ground from up the window and I can see not just one coin but 2 or 3 and I don't even remember saying thank you. I will just run down and pick up the coin and run to the store and buy my candy.
As I was growing up, (since I have Jesus, Mother Mary and Father God, not to mention all the sages and saints e.g. calling St. Anthony when you lost or misplaced something, calling another when you are being chase by a rabid dog; calling St. Rita, St. Francis etc. etc.), I have no need to confide to friends and relatives about problems, issues and challenges. I have all this heavenly beings that are ready to assist me. And yet, there are so many questions that I needed an answer and yet I did not hear the answer, or perhaps I did not want to hear or did not listen enough. One thing I remember, during the major challenges/events/issues in my life, they are always there. Let me mention some incidents that I can still see vividly in my mind:
It seemed like I had a stomach flu and I was all alone since my parents were out of the country and everyone else are out and about. I felt like I burning candle whose light is about to be extinguish completely, so...utter a little prayer, call the imaginary friends "Father God, Mother Mary and Jesus - I feel so sick, there is no one to care for me and I sure do not want to call emergency nor do I want to go to the hospital " - just like that and I saw them on the right top corner of the ceiling, they are coming down, and then I passed out. I woke up a few hours later and I was feeling much, much better.
I was in labor for 26 hours and still not properly dilated. They wanted to wait and they will only do a C-sect if it is necessary. The pain was unbearable and I told them to cut me up and get the baby out. And so it is. I asked for it, I get it. The monitor showed the baby's heartbeat stopped. After a few more test, I was told that the baby was "in distress" and they have to cut me up. During the commotion and when I filled out my medical forms, I forget to mention that I had prolo therapy treatment that made me almost immune to a regular dose of anesthesia and that they have to give me 2 or 3x the normal to make it effective. As I was in the operating room and the anesthesiologist was holding my hand, it looked like I was under it already so they started cutting me up - well, I wasn't under it, I was fully awake but my body cannot move so I started screaming and since my body cannot do anything, no proper sound was being produce by
the vocal chords but the anesthesiologist remembered that she can hear some type of moaning sound but she could not make out what it is - so they continue cutting me up and I hear every sound and can feel every pain as the cutting instrument touched the flesh of the body. And I heard a voice
" YOU ARE NOT THE BODY, YOU ARE NOT THE MIND" but I am feeling the pain and hearing the voices.
" YOU ARE NOT THE BODY, YOU ARE NOT THE MIND" but what am I to do to stop this experienced?
" YOU ARE NOT THE BODY, YOU ARE NOT THE MIND" ... fine, I have enough of this. And so I got out of the body and the mind. And woke up in the recovery room.
This is painful but I know it is just memory pain and I have to finish this. And when I do, I know I will feel good and you will too. So, I will try to be emotionally detach from it and continue.
When I was working in downtown Chicago I would go to Old Saint Mary's church for lunch, sit on the pew and take a nap. It would happen that from time to time, while taking a nap, someone will wake me up and he/she is not alive (you know like sort of a spirit or perhaps others call it a ghost) and we will just chat for a minute or 2. There was also an incident when my old polish neighbor who did not speak a word of English came to my dream at around 6p.m (I was so tired that I went straight to bed after work) and asked me to take her and guide her to where she was going because she felt lost and afraid. I said OK and a hand appeared and gave me a lamp to guide us through. The next day her son came and informed me that she died around 6 p.m. the previous day. A few other deaths and wakes and funerals where I got a chance to talk to the departed.
A few years before my mom passed away, she told me she was going blind but did not want the others to know. I remember receiving some type of "holy ash" in a packet and it is supposed to be curative, so I gave it to my mom and told her to rub it in her eyes at night and in a weeks time, she told me her vision was back to normal.
What are all the above instances and incidents - are they miracles? To me, it was so ordinary, so normal, as normal as breathing keeps me alive. As normal as the eyelids protects the eyes, as ordinary as the eyelids closes when you are ready to sleep and will open when you are ready to wake up. Tell me, why do we expect miracles, and what miracles are we expecting?
If miracle is an event that appears inexplicable by the laws of nature and so is held to be supernatural in origin or an act of God, isn't the opening and closing of your eyelids an act of God? isn't the beating of your heart inexplicable, isn't being born and dying supernatural? the fact that I can write this and you can read it, that I don't know you and you don't know me and yet we are touching each others life, isn't it the most amazing thing???
"BEYOND" is something that lies outside the scope of ordinary experience. If miracle is an act of God, then beyond miracle is something that lies outside an Act of God. If creation is an Act of God, then what lies outside creation? could it be FREE WILL? Why will God raise His Hand and say " This Hands can turn everything to nothing and nothing to everything (can turn dust into Gold, water into wine, raise the dead and everything else) and yet, it cannot change the heart of man". Why? Because He gave us a free will and He is honoring that. The choice is ours The only free will is the will to choose to be human or to realize that you are divine - a divine being having a human experience. Realize it now. There is no better choice, there is no better time.
Dearest, the divinity in me acknowledges the divinity in you. Know it and be happy, you deserve to be.
Be happy, be happy, be happy.
8 comments:
dang, where do you get this things? i am blown away. are you for real? are you one of those beings that they talk about on you tube? I googled you and I did not get much info.
Your blog was sent to me and I did not even want to read it because I am a very bitter person. After reading it, I made a choice - to realize that I am divine having a human experience. How can I not? I have the same experience as you when I had a C-section but I chose to sue the hospital and the doctor. I wanted to destroy those who caused me pain. And you??? you heard a voice and now you are sharing this experiences. I can feel your pain but most of all I can feel the love. And when you acknowledge the divinity in me, I suddenly felt it and I wanted to hear the same VOICE. Pray for me and please answer my email.
I will be happy. Thank you for saying I deserve to be. I have always been told that I dont deserve anything. If you are still in Chicago can I meet you?
I believe you. That little voice that you heard I heard it too, way back in 1985. I love to eat greasy and junk food. One day I went to buy my lunch (fried fish and french fries and before my lunch enter my mouth, came that little VOICE telling me not to eat my lunch because it's not good for my health. I did stop eating greasy food and became a vegetarian. From that time on that voice became my guiding voice.
Dear Anonymous,
This blog is a work in progress. If you have read the first day,it was mentioned that there is only one God.
It seems like when I read the second and third day it spokes to me as a Catholic. Why do you think this blog was named Divinity Within You? Because you don't have to search and look around to find God, just look within yourself and realize that what you have been searching all your life is within you. Stop saying that you are right and others are wrong. Divinity is in all of us, if you only look inside not outside. There is divinity in every sect, Catholicism, Hindim,Jainism,Sikhism,Parsis, you name it. I don't know what color is your skin, but you cannot tell me that if you're a yellow skinned person you will be the only one that is right, what about the Caucasian,
the African, and others? You are discounting the rest of the world.
Does it mean that if you're
a Chinese lawyer you are better than the rest of the other lawyers who are not Chinese, that is discrimination. I don't think you are a racist. Have you read day 4, It stated that everything is just illusion, even you is an illusion whether you agree with me or not.
Wake up and realize your divinity.
Thank you for responding but you did not read my comment well. I did not say I am right, you missed the most important question I asked. I know that in every human being is a good soul or he/she has divinity that needs to be tapped.
I am not also a racist because religion is for all since God the Almighty created us all. He is the CREATOR and Sustainer of us all -- not only human beings but all things living n non living in this world.
Refer back to my comment and my concern was why do SSB devotees consider and praise him like God? You even capitalized the letter H in "He" when you refer to him in your one of your blogs. You even mentioned you kissed his feet and bowed down and prostrated to him. Isn’t this worshipping him – another creation of our ONLY God??
This is what my question is about.
Human are created with INTELLECT. You are intelligent I suppose , Intellect increases our faith when we get more knowledge about GOD. He is all Perfect, all Powerful and the ONLY ONE worthy of worship.
Look around you besides looking within you, The creation of heaven and earth, the flowers, trees, bees, butterflies, the sun, the moon, the rain, the rivers, the mountains etc..GOD HAS NOT DONE ALL THESE BEAUTY IN VAIN. So, in plain sight, if we don’t see the miracles in these creations, you must be missing GOD.
We need not search for a man or a holy man like Sathya Baba to understand that there is an all powerful being behind the grandeur and beauty of this earth we all live in.
What is the fundamental purpose of our intellect? Use it to worship and praise God. Your body, your heart your brain are all engineered by God. Perhaps you need not search too much in your divinity inside, REFLECT on the BEAUTY and the BLESSINGS God the Creator gave us all.
Human are always searching, your divinity is owned by God. Your sight is owned by God, your hearing is owned by God. Illusion is just a word. Don’t discredit God for creating you. Everything happens for a reason. There is a hereafter and all our good deeds here on earth will be accepted by our God-the only Creator.
I acknowledge your search for God as an inner kinship of your intellect and soul. You only need to bring it back to the right SOURCE.
Dear Anonymous,
I like your comment. Why not write your own blog. I am not kidding,will do it for me?
Barry, Long Beach, CA.(aka anonymous)
Now, are you going to reveal your name to me? Or your hiding from someone.
Thanks Barry, our comments are meant for us to contemplate and open our eyes and heart for real guidance.
My name is Khanika, I am from Scarborough,ON. My parents are originally from India and I grew up for the most part of my life here in Canada. It was in my High School days that I began asking the religion I was born into. I kept on asking so many why's and can't seem to get the answer. I was a Hindu and I felt that the belief of my parents and forefathers IS not making sense at all.
I just read the 9th blog today, claiming there is only one religion. I was a Hindu and I used to believe in deities, elephants, cows. My conscience bothered me as these deities are not to be praised and worshipped as or like God.
There are a lot of gurus in my country hundreds and millions perhaps. Foreigners, westeners flock in our land to practice meditation and find "nirvana".
I am amazed by that, this is feeding your soul to get the PEACE & CONTENTMENT we all are searching for.
When, I came to visit India 6 years ago, I was seated to a lady who was chanting Om and said she is going to see a Holy man- his Guru that saved her from all her misery in life for she was going thru a divorce. So, that made me ponder and think, what? A guru in India- and she claims she is GOD. How can this be?
Let me stop here, I don't want to stir up or cause hatred amongst devotees of this man.
If you feel happy because you achieved nirvana through him, fine, but to claim he is God, is a totally different story.
I converted and my religion only teaches that there is only one God. There is no deity to be associated with Him. His name is Allah. My husband, who was my high school friend, was also a Hindu and both of us converted 3 years ago. Allah sent us all the books, from Torah, Psalms, Holy Bible, Quran – all revelations sent by Allah to His prophets for the guidance of mankind. Yet, man again and again deviated from the oneness of God. (Remember the golden calf, the pharaohs of those times-this are examples of idolatry)
I must say, it was difficult for both our families to accept it. But if I had my way, I would like to share all the goodness and blessings I have found in my faith right now not only to my loved ones but to everyone.
To end, Allah has said, even if you use all the oceans and seas as ink and consume all the trees as pen to write the love, compassion and blessings I have for my whole creation, they will all be insufficient.
May Allah bless all of us and continue to show us the right path.
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